My first blog here. What to do, what to do...I guess i'm writing this as a way to clear my thoughts and a way to keep myself inspired... lately i've been feeling very adrift and unsure,even though I know I have my set goals that I am working towards. I think i'm just feeling uneasy because i'm feeling alone. I have my friends, but all of my friends live in other states so its hard to stay in touch....and even still, its difficult to do things that friends should do. When i'm happy, I want to celebrate with my friends...when i've accomplished something difficult, it'd be fun to have that someone there that I can be like, " look, look at what i've been able to do!" ...and vice versa, when my friends are sad, or sick, i'd like to be able to be the person to come over and do things to make them happy/make them feel better...these are the things friends do, right? ...but you can't hug someone from half a world away... ah. These kind of thoughts really get me down, but I feel like they're the majority of my thinking these days.
Mm.
My goals:
- Grow as an artist and be able to build/illustrate well.
- Create work that has a meaning and a purpose.
- Learn japanese
- move to Japan!
- Become amazing dancer!
- Become a good person.
I'm working hard at all of these, but some seem harder than others. I think I need to sit down and reflect more on where I stand as a person...I try to do this a lot, to keep myself in check, but lately I feel like i'm lacking a whole lot as a person. I feel like there are so many things I want to give and share and can't...ah, back to friends being gone. Maybe it's because i'm sick right now, but I'm thinking on this a lot. I want to be the type of person who inspires others because they themselves are trying really hard as a person. I feel like a lot of people nowadays are content with sitting around waiting for the things they want to come to them, and are ok with just being there instead of living. It's driving me insane.
I miss my friends, I miss myself. Great first post, no? lolz.
Mm....wishing I could help more people, but before I can help others, I need to keep improving myself. I will work hard to be a good person, to improve. I'm only human and have many many flaws...I'm short tempered even though I try not to be, I'm sarcastic and I think that covers up how much some people really mean to me...I know I can be lazy, ... I know i'm selfish at times as well. Help me work hard to fix these things so I can show the world the best possible me. I want to be the best person I can be for the people I love. Fighting! lolz.
ah.....
who am I?
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